wednesday, 4th june

I feel like I had a rite of passage I couldn't get on time - I feel like a teenage girl having her first ever crush.

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I've been feeling really elated for past few days. I didn't feel like that for ages.

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I'm thinking about the future more. I really want to have someone to spend rest of my life with, have children, all of this. Maybe because I'm scared of making the first step or maybe I didn't really desire that for so long - I was too busy with figuring out my life

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I messaged him to tell that I felt really happy for first time in ages because of our meeting.