I'm tired of that I'm constantly being left with doing things for someone, who only cares about profit. I was left alone all the time and I made quite few mistakes and I clearly signalled that I can't take it anymore but for this person what I do, which is a lot, isn't enough yet. I hate that someone who is so close to me only cares about exploiting people for their own gain and doesn't want to listen anyone, because she knows it all the best.
*I saw my theraphist in first time in two weeks. Half of visit was mostly about bullshit I have to deal with currently and rest devolved into tinfoiling about... Iga Świątek's handler and groomer psychologist who's like the final boss of these weirdo women psychologists in my country. This woman made her literally so dependent on her wtf. I saw her behavior on camera, It's even worse knowing she was around her constantly since Iga was 16, she's literally everywhere with her which feels so off. I actually talked about it with my friend before kek. Anons on 4ch's sports board think she's a lesbian and her batshit middle aged psychologist is literally her partner. It kinda does make sense actually... I don't know why there's so much of weird shit around her.
I've been feeling better recently a bit. I can talk to people again and let things out from me, even if they are stupid...
*I manage to keep my computer's desktop clean from random files. I now only have my photo and site folders on here. I managed to keep my bedroom clean for past two days. Yesterday I even cleaned up some old magazines I piled on floor, the desk at which I sew and a bit of floor around it. Collected some scraps but not everything yet. I want to keep up with cleaning up things instantly. Things need to stop piling on and stop becoming unmanageable...