wednesday, 06th june

Things I carry in my purse: a boring beaten up wallet, my Leuchtturm A6 calendar I got as a gift (first calendar with layout I like, I'm picky about it), a Parker Jotter, my boring phone, keys, a comb, two sanitary pads (all the time), lip balm, recently my Clinique powder. Occasionally, sewing thread or invisible zippers I just bought or a digital camera. I mentioned it before that I switched to a smaller bag and somehow all of this fits in here. Before I had a small bag, but I could load so much into it and I even could stuff 5 digicams and rest of my usual things or I carried fabrics I bought inside it.

I've been writting my online journal entries even daily, I feel like I'm less tense recently. I exercised today too and I'm 100 pages into Murakami's Underground. Since I don't have my sewing machine I tried to draw a bit, but I couldn't draw much at all. I wanted to liquify my brain with getting mad for fashion youtubers being brainrotten by social media but I couldn't do it...

I'm reading a lot more now and it makes me think about how my mom used to read a lot when she was of my age, but nowadays she can't get to read any book at all. I'm glad she was buying these tacky "leather" bound mass market editions of classics from my country plus some from other countries back in the 90s and 00s. I barely had to borrow school books as I had them at home. This makes me think about how people bought encyclopedias back then, especially when our state science publisher started to run a new edition consisting of 31 volumes, my parents bought it thinking that I'll use it as a teen... I indeed did if internet results were lackluster. It's from 20 years ago but I like to go through it. I like having a different way to source information, internet did monopolize how you get your knowledge. It started to feel too convenient, too easy, too empty.